It took me weeks to get started on writing this post. Oh har de har de har.

I’ve been through a hell of a lot in 2011, and along the way there has been a fair bit of loathing, anger and downright misery.

Just a quick thing – to welcome in the new year, I’ve created a new place to moan about all those things, you know, that aren’t cancer. Or productivity. It’s at bloodycomplaining.com – go have a look!

Being diagnosed with cancer is not only tough on you as the patient, but on your family and loved ones too. Think about that, because it’s worth remembering. You’re not the only one suffering.

I’ve been OD’ing on Merlin Mann again, thanks to a whole series of Back to Work podcasts and six hours of driving again today.

I’m an evil sod. I really am. When most people have the dignity to deal with their illness in a calm and cultured manner, I used it to get things. The worse part? It worked.

I’m making the clackity noise again. I’m rattling the keys of my minimalist keyboard and sitting in front of a nice big monitor and really really trying to recall the biggest moment of my life.

I’m reading Merlin Mann’s article about the clackity noise and the content is so good that it compells me to start writing straight away. Literally. I haven’t even finished the article and i’m starting to type.

Writing about this has been really hard. no, really hard. Actually, I take that back, it’s been really, really hard. I wanted to just write about it, but that was almost impossible, so i started a blog, thinking that would be the best place to start writing about it, but that didn’t work either, so i thought about a hundred other ways to capture my thoughts and all of them didn’t work and then I…..